The J man deprived me of light

I sank lowlow where even

the ants felt sorry for me

All those mornings I woke up

to my chest wheezing & all I

could think to do was lay on

my back starring at the dusty

ceiling fan as my tears slid down

my swollen cheeks & filled my

ears

 

The J man always made me feel loved

the 1st week of trying to get me back

I called it the LOVE CONQUERS ALL Phase

By the 2nd week I would try to roam barefoot all

throughout his mind but there was just no room for

me anymore I called it the SELF SABOTAGE Phase

 

The J man proposed we have a future together

I had to cover my mouth because my

cursed tongue almost threw up  Y E S right away

I knew I’d have to live my life on standby & wait

for him to remember he had a me in his life & I was

still alive

 

The J man never fought for me

The J man never made me feel free because I was his exploited phoenix

The J man never wanted us to heal. He liked the thrill of the toxicity

The J man never thought there could be a me without a him

The J man never wanted me to roam barefoot in another man’s mind

But,

the J man could never comprehend how sacred this woman’s love will always be.